What's a Girl to Do?

I think so often girls are taught to think with our heads not our hearts deceived, hurt, and broken. All of my life I have tried so hard to think with my head- to do the rational thing, the thing that society tells me I should do. And yet, I have felt all 3 of those emotions- deception, hurt, brokenness. I thank God that I have never been so deep in the pit that I felt that I could not recover, but that He placed me in those places to grow. But if I am still feeling these things, maybe it's time for a change?

These thoughts are on my mind because God has now given me some opportunities that seem “too good to be true” and I feel like I’m trying to find the balance between thinking with my head and following my heart. In each of these opportunities, I’m trying to find the “catch” in the situation. I am constantly thinking- “there must be something wrong here!” There are several places that these lies could be coming from

• The lie that I don’t deserve something this good (a lie that all girls tend to believe)
• The lie that everyone is out there for themselves (yes, we are all sinners, but that doesn’t mean everyone is out to hurt people.)
• The lie that God isn’t enough and that His plans aren’t better than mine.
• Just plain fear.
  

There are probably some other underlying lies, but these are 3 that I can see constantly trying to pop up into my life.

But God calls us (me) to fully rely on him. The Bible (Proverbs 3:5) doesn’t say, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart (not mind), but constantly be on the lookout for the catch, the flaw, etc.” No, rather He calls us to not lean on our own understanding (rational thoughts). If God followed what was rational, I don’t think He would have sent His ONLY Son whom He LOVED to come down from His THRONE to live among people who would MOCK Him, KIILL Him, and REJECT Him for generations. That type of “Crazy Love” as Francis Chan would call it, does not make sense, but it is the type of LOVE {agape }we are supposed to have.

In my previous entry, I wrote about how God tells us that He has plans to prosper us and not to harm us. It says it plainly: PROSPER AND NOT HARM. There is no “catch.” If I am truly to rely on God, I have to stop thinking cynically with my head and love like He loves with my heart. Now, I am not condoning completing jumping into a situation without being reasonable. But here, being “reasonable” means entering a situation in which you know is a part of God’s plan TRUSTING and ENJOYING the path He has put you on. I’m pray that in the opportunities He has given me, I am able to do that and I am so excited to see what happens.